Things changed so fast this few months back. I guess I've reached my bottleneck in which I'm not able to run anymore but submit to his needs. I've become his most obedient student and he loves me for that. For him, I'm the sex goddess and that's the only time I feel worth. Apart from that I'm lower than a whore.
Now I did go out with guys. Sometimes its merely a drink but I would exaggerate just to satisfy his imaginings. Even if I told him the truth, he would push and push for me to say exactly what he wanted to hear, that we had a fuck. And that would keep him satisfied and happy for the night. And the next day, he would curse me as usual. Slut!!
At this point of time, he is chatting with me (he's on leave today) asking me plan for tomorrow to date a guy. What I should be wearing and all. He asked me to ask him like how Mark did to me when he asked questions (oh yes, he reads all my cybersex and all chats with men). Straight to point. Like asking him to go to his place and have a fuck there. And I need to let the phone on so he could hear us making out or take pic of his cock. That would please him and its a show of respect.
Until today, I manage to be faithful and not having fuck with any man, in REAL. But I would not know tomorrow. He said if he can't see me fucking a man, he would arrange for one. I'm so tired and I really don't know how and what to do.
