my faveret mug

My daughter wanted me to send her to mom's house so she could play with her cousins during this school hols. So I need to cook early in morning for abang and kakak and drive all the way to Shah Alam and rushed to office and the traffic memang la macam haremmm!!! Sabo je la! Masuk lambat je la coti skola nih.

It was his birthday last few days and I bought him dinner at nice place together with the kids. I've never missed to buy him prezzie or card or even nice dinner. And this time, it's only dinner. I was thinking of buying him watch, but then on second thought, I think I had given him too much that it doesn't have much value to him anymore. Just like me I guess.

Well..he text me asking if I bought him any prezzie. I told him I gave him my cunt tonite..muahaha..and he said that's for whoever and replied to ask me if I can give him a chat or dictpick. I told him I've already blanjer makan and he said that's makan..and he want prezzie.. I told him he didn't bought any presents for me either..in fact for few years. My torch blackberry he bought for my last year ended up me paying for it...ni kes i-blanjer-u-bayar. (of coz I didn't mentioned this to him..nanti drop his water face..sendili mau ingat la kan) Hahaha..padan muka...

And he said he did bought me birthday present ti year, just that I didn't remembered it. I asked him what was it because I know there wasn't any, because if he thought that black dildo was one, it definitely not count as he bought it for his benefit and on many normal occasions. So terus senyap la.. but really..I don't mind not getting any presents, spending another year with the kids and him around is more than enough for. 

But deep down, I do long for a bouquet of flowers sent to my office. And I know he wouldn't buy any coz I did told him before but he said it's waste of money. So wa senyap je lah.. terpadam la harapan nak dapat sejambak bunga dari seorang suami. Well, true I guess, it's waste of money. But being a woman, flowers are something that can make differentiation than the rest of other day. You just want to feel special on that day. And he wouldn't understand that anyways.  And never been given flower in my entire life makes me think that it's only my forever wishful thinking. Ahh..pathetic..order bunga anta diri sendiri sudehh!! Haha..giler saiko macam Mr Bean anta kad krismas to himself..LOL!

Ok sambung..

So back to to-fro from Shah Alam to pick up my doter, I kinda feel tired by end of the day. So after showered and had our dinner, I lied down just to regain back my energy. And he was pissed seeing that I'm resting and he was doing laundry and that I left my drink on the table for him to clean up. I told him that I need to rest for awhile and I will finish up my drink and clean up. He was grumbling saying that I should do all the chores first than only rest. Well, I know my body, if penat tu memang la penat..I just need a rest. Paksa-paksa pon tak guna coz if I fell sick..takde orang pon nak jaga. I didn't said that of coz. I just kept quiet letting him said all things he wanna said as if I have no feeling at all. 

So I woke up to finish up my drink but it was no longer on the table. And I saw my mug and jug were in the dustbin. I just don't know what to say. My kids saw the expression on my face, and my daughter said..it's ok mummy..boleh basuh mug tu. Oh! Kesedihan okay. And I just went to bed in sorrow giler.

So this morning, as if I'm ok with my mug being thrown in the dustbin, I asked him if he's going to pay for the hotel he asked me to book. And he did a surprised look and said no. So I told him if he's not going to pay I will be cancelling it.

Kesian budak-budak looking forward for it but I just want him to take ownership too and not depending on me to pay for the hotels every time it's school holidays. Banyak kali dah terkena, suruh book hotel..last-last mak gak kena fork out. And this month I'm paying for my car insurance and roadtax, so I'm on tight budget. So he asked the kids, who want to follow him to go back hometown and who want to stay with mummy. Aikk.. tak pasal-pasal, sebab hotel tak book, hakak kena tinggal. Argghh! Like ohsome okay the way he thinks. 

Really I'm too sedih okay when I think about my mug that he threw into the dustbin. What was he thinking? Maybe he couldn't accept that he was going to wash my mug so he threw it? No matter how he treated me, I still respect and take care of him as a husband. And he threw my faveret flowery mug?? Malas la nak ulas2..nanti cakap ungkit pulak.

I'm just too sad. If I wanna make a scene, I just can tell him that I'm not following him back to his hometown. And I know he will say - pergi mampos lah and u boleh pergi fuck around with your bfs! And when he came back he would interrogate and asked details of those cocks..hahah..Yeah something like that!

And I will have my serenity for few days.. Yayy...but of coz I can't do that. I need to take care of the kids..makan pakai sumer..so that's how it is. Or maybe I just let him take care of the kids. Ehmm..

And I called my mom just now because I have doubt about mandi wajib. Do I need to mandi wajib every time I cumm or only when we have sex? I read it somewhere that only applicable when you have sex. Tapi still musykil. Coz the thing is, I think we haven't have sex for months because I was a dirty person to him and he only like to shove in those equipments to me and that excites him to max. Sex..I need to seek somewhere else but not with him. Duhh!! But really..do I need to mandi wajib every time I cum? So my mom said..we talk about this later! The kids are around. 

Yes mummy!

And esok lusa wa coti..yayyyy!!!