3rd week onwards
He started to get delusional saying that I still need to support the kids emotionally even though I will have new life and family. Right..family dah masuk..tak abis-abis delusional and with his cuckold traits.
Then he started to grumble how difficult to handle the kids.
How he don't have anyone, and kept asking for my forgiveness. Telling that I can ask anything as long as we are not separated. That I can keep all his money as long as he have me and just tell him what he needs to do to have me back...you are my life and I can't live without you kinda shit la.
I didn't answer most of his wassup and that annoyed him. So he pushed and pressured me to answer his messages saying that he needed to know whether I still have heart for him or sympathize him so he can decide to give me talak 1 or max (AGAIN!!). Ko gila talak la nanti bro!!
And since I didn't replied to his text, so he's giving me max...tapi cakap.."to me you're the only one I love and never forget" (gilo la). And he keep on harassing, asking me why do I kept quiet and not sympathizing him
I love you so much ampun kan la dosa I...Marrrrr please!!
And I just laughed. Evil laugh.
He called my lawyer for out of court settlement..said I'm calculative and fed up and said that I've not been sincere bringing up the kids.
This is the time I shoot him with my long kept anger. Depan asik pujuk tapi blakang he's bad mouthing me to my mom dad and my kids. I don't know what he may have said to the neighbors.
Then he started to create new story how I've changed that I've discarded the family just to build new life with new husband where the future may not be as good like what I've expected. My daughter was so depressed that she told her sadness to my sister in law. How her father told her that mami dulu tu liar..sebelum abah kahwin dengan mami..mami tu dah kawin tapi tak nikah ...pikimakkkk bastard!!
Then she told him that she no longer wanted to be the middle person to call and persuade me to come back to him. She even thinks that she doesn't want me to live with his father. And she got scolded for saying that where he called her 'anak setan' (something like that) for wanting to see me and him divorced. Lahanatttt punya jantan! How could he insult her that way. Sapa bapak setan sebenarnya??? Then she said dad said sorry for saying that because he was angry!! Useless bastard! Anak tu dah hurt la bangang sebab ko tak dapat control ko nye perangai setan tu! Tapi tu memang jawapan standard la... ko insult orang macam orang tu kayu..pastu ko say sorry-naik-lori-pegi-mati-la-lu!! I was so pissed off to hear that! I'm not there for him to abuse and insult and he's throwing that to my daughter. Macibai siotss.
Oh did I tell you the reason why I was determined to finally get a divorce? In late Oct/Nov last year, I got to know from my eldest and youngest daughter that they were molested by their grandfather. He even told my lil daughter that he want to korek pepet mami boleh tak?? I cried and was so angry at same time thinking the trauma that my daughters had to go through and that it was my fault at same time for taking it so long to get out of that crazy and doomed family.. Sial lahanat punya orang tua!! Semayang mengaji berzikir pergi surau every waktu..tapi rupanya setan sebenarnya..He will not die easy until he asked for forgiveness from me and my daughters. I don't care whether you are already 80s years old, what he did is totally unforgiven. I don't think I can even forgive him.
I managed to record few conversations with my lil daughter on how, when and where his atuk pegang her pepet which happened few occasions since April. I made police report and need to secretly bring my kids to police stations for them to take their statements. And yes it did happened and the police lady which was nice to them advise them protect themselves if their atuk did that again. And I keep reiterating them how they should keep themselves away from atuk and if he did that again to kick his kote hard and shout that atuk pegang pepet so that he will feel ashamed and let me know asap so I can also kick his balls hard until he pissed in his pants!! Even now if I see him infront of me, I will definitely loose my temper and will kasik kaw kaw atas muka dia!!!
One thing I learned about this type of people, they insulted you because they felt inferior and tried to take control of others by making them feel guilty, stupid and small in order to gain control over their victim that already felt helpless. In fact, they actually got no ball and they just say things but will not dare do it. The only way to tackle them is to fight back! It took me years to breakthrough this barrier because I have the perception that I need to obey husband nanti tak masuk surga kalau buat suami marah.
Wrong understanding on how woman have been thought throughout their life. Total BS!! Sad indeed. And I ask myself why?? A woman will always have their individual right as a human and no one can take from her not even the husband! Nobody own yourself except yourself. We were created in this world not to be submissive to anyone and deny our own rights to choose our own mind and thinking and life. Don't get me wrong that the code of conduct of each partnership is essential like understanding and certain level of tolerance but not to the extent to be the sacrificial lamb (like what I had stated in my side bar menu and what my MrGenius always said to me). I will definitely keep reminding my kids about this! You have to learn to respect and love yourself, so that you will understand and appreciate how to love others. And I have to save myself from this hell of life before I can save my kids. Otherwise I will get drowned together with them. True.
So with the guidance and pressure I got from MrG on how to manage him, which were pretty extensive, I finally got to fight him. I will bring out all his past doings, how he had treated me mentally and sexually abused me and how I got manipulated and tricked by him all these years. I will bring up about his father, how he didn't even dare to ask his own father whether his father did pegang pepet of his daughters? And he told my daughter, how could he asked that to his father as he is his son. Nanti abah kena boikot dengan adik beradik abah pulak. Bangsat punya lelaki!! Yet he said he will safeguard his children with his life. Liar takde telur punya jantan!
How he is sick in head and need to see doctor and that he is an abuser and his father is a child molester and both of them are sick and setan. I insult and bring down his balls and ego to my feet. It's payback time. I want him to feel the hell he has made me. Then he will say sorry and ask for forgiveness and cried and ask me not to leave him and start a fresh new life again and not to proceed with the divorce as he was very scared of going to court for the hearing. He don't want everyone to know about the reasons of the divorce which will definitely ashamed him and his family. Aikkk.. cakap nak panggil press bagai! Mana dia press bro?? Mak baru ingat dapat masuk HarianMetro front page pakai sepek itam beso!!
I told him I will never ever go back to him again. I have no heart at all for him and even hate him so much and there's no benefit for me to go back to him except another same cycle of hell because he will never change.
He started to get delusional saying that I still need to support the kids emotionally even though I will have new life and family. Right..family dah masuk..tak abis-abis delusional and with his cuckold traits.
Then he started to grumble how difficult to handle the kids.
How he don't have anyone, and kept asking for my forgiveness. Telling that I can ask anything as long as we are not separated. That I can keep all his money as long as he have me and just tell him what he needs to do to have me back...you are my life and I can't live without you kinda shit la.
I didn't answer most of his wassup and that annoyed him. So he pushed and pressured me to answer his messages saying that he needed to know whether I still have heart for him or sympathize him so he can decide to give me talak 1 or max (AGAIN!!). Ko gila talak la nanti bro!!
And since I didn't replied to his text, so he's giving me max...tapi cakap.."to me you're the only one I love and never forget" (gilo la). And he keep on harassing, asking me why do I kept quiet and not sympathizing him
I love you so much ampun kan la dosa I...Marrrrr please!!
And I just laughed. Evil laugh.
He called my lawyer for out of court settlement..said I'm calculative and fed up and said that I've not been sincere bringing up the kids.
This is the time I shoot him with my long kept anger. Depan asik pujuk tapi blakang he's bad mouthing me to my mom dad and my kids. I don't know what he may have said to the neighbors.
Then he started to create new story how I've changed that I've discarded the family just to build new life with new husband where the future may not be as good like what I've expected. My daughter was so depressed that she told her sadness to my sister in law. How her father told her that mami dulu tu liar..sebelum abah kahwin dengan mami..mami tu dah kawin tapi tak nikah ...pikimakkkk bastard!!
Then she told him that she no longer wanted to be the middle person to call and persuade me to come back to him. She even thinks that she doesn't want me to live with his father. And she got scolded for saying that where he called her 'anak setan' (something like that) for wanting to see me and him divorced. Lahanatttt punya jantan! How could he insult her that way. Sapa bapak setan sebenarnya??? Then she said dad said sorry for saying that because he was angry!! Useless bastard! Anak tu dah hurt la bangang sebab ko tak dapat control ko nye perangai setan tu! Tapi tu memang jawapan standard la... ko insult orang macam orang tu kayu..pastu ko say sorry-naik-lori-pegi-mati-la-lu!! I was so pissed off to hear that! I'm not there for him to abuse and insult and he's throwing that to my daughter. Macibai siotss.
Oh did I tell you the reason why I was determined to finally get a divorce? In late Oct/Nov last year, I got to know from my eldest and youngest daughter that they were molested by their grandfather. He even told my lil daughter that he want to korek pepet mami boleh tak?? I cried and was so angry at same time thinking the trauma that my daughters had to go through and that it was my fault at same time for taking it so long to get out of that crazy and doomed family.. Sial lahanat punya orang tua!! Semayang mengaji berzikir pergi surau every waktu..tapi rupanya setan sebenarnya..He will not die easy until he asked for forgiveness from me and my daughters. I don't care whether you are already 80s years old, what he did is totally unforgiven. I don't think I can even forgive him.
I managed to record few conversations with my lil daughter on how, when and where his atuk pegang her pepet which happened few occasions since April. I made police report and need to secretly bring my kids to police stations for them to take their statements. And yes it did happened and the police lady which was nice to them advise them protect themselves if their atuk did that again. And I keep reiterating them how they should keep themselves away from atuk and if he did that again to kick his kote hard and shout that atuk pegang pepet so that he will feel ashamed and let me know asap so I can also kick his balls hard until he pissed in his pants!! Even now if I see him infront of me, I will definitely loose my temper and will kasik kaw kaw atas muka dia!!!
One thing I learned about this type of people, they insulted you because they felt inferior and tried to take control of others by making them feel guilty, stupid and small in order to gain control over their victim that already felt helpless. In fact, they actually got no ball and they just say things but will not dare do it. The only way to tackle them is to fight back! It took me years to breakthrough this barrier because I have the perception that I need to obey husband nanti tak masuk surga kalau buat suami marah.
Wrong understanding on how woman have been thought throughout their life. Total BS!! Sad indeed. And I ask myself why?? A woman will always have their individual right as a human and no one can take from her not even the husband! Nobody own yourself except yourself. We were created in this world not to be submissive to anyone and deny our own rights to choose our own mind and thinking and life. Don't get me wrong that the code of conduct of each partnership is essential like understanding and certain level of tolerance but not to the extent to be the sacrificial lamb (like what I had stated in my side bar menu and what my MrGenius always said to me). I will definitely keep reminding my kids about this! You have to learn to respect and love yourself, so that you will understand and appreciate how to love others. And I have to save myself from this hell of life before I can save my kids. Otherwise I will get drowned together with them. True.
So with the guidance and pressure I got from MrG on how to manage him, which were pretty extensive, I finally got to fight him. I will bring out all his past doings, how he had treated me mentally and sexually abused me and how I got manipulated and tricked by him all these years. I will bring up about his father, how he didn't even dare to ask his own father whether his father did pegang pepet of his daughters? And he told my daughter, how could he asked that to his father as he is his son. Nanti abah kena boikot dengan adik beradik abah pulak. Bangsat punya lelaki!! Yet he said he will safeguard his children with his life. Liar takde telur punya jantan!
How he is sick in head and need to see doctor and that he is an abuser and his father is a child molester and both of them are sick and setan. I insult and bring down his balls and ego to my feet. It's payback time. I want him to feel the hell he has made me. Then he will say sorry and ask for forgiveness and cried and ask me not to leave him and start a fresh new life again and not to proceed with the divorce as he was very scared of going to court for the hearing. He don't want everyone to know about the reasons of the divorce which will definitely ashamed him and his family. Aikkk.. cakap nak panggil press bagai! Mana dia press bro?? Mak baru ingat dapat masuk HarianMetro front page pakai sepek itam beso!!
I told him I will never ever go back to him again. I have no heart at all for him and even hate him so much and there's no benefit for me to go back to him except another same cycle of hell because he will never change.
My little daughter quarreled with his brother and she packed her clothes and asked him to send her to her babysitter's house because she wanted to runaway. He told me that she followed her mother who also runaway from home. I told him how did he managed the kids? Sampai adik pon nak lari rumah? Cakap pandai sangat manage!! I was so angry and so I will take all the kids and fight in the court because he's ruining them and making them sad staying with him. He immediately called me crying over the phone like a baby..
Marissa...please don't do this. I only have them. If you take them away from me, I'll die..please!! You promise that you agree to let them stay with me.
I changed my mind! You cannot handle them! You're ruining them! You insult kakak! You said bad things about me to the kids! What kind of person you ni!!! I'm their mother!
You can't even protect them. I'm going to take them!!
Marissa please..I'm sorry! Sumpah I tak cakap buruk pon pasal you. I will protect them.
Sudah la I malas nak layan.
Ok..if you want to take the kids..I will fight in court!
Yes, you do that! Then we will see if the judge will think you're fit to be their guardian.
Marissa.. please. Ok ..I promise you I will take care of them. I tanak gaduh and ungkit kisah lama..please!!
So I will keep on doing that every time he tried to control me and insult me again. My final words..you tell your stories and you can bring all your fucking evidence to court and let the judge decide who's telling the lies. Then let judge decide whether he is fit to become a father. Silap2 hakim tu suruh you jumpa psychiatrist and the case got referred to police under civil law. Bring it on!!
Then he will call again..begging..Marissa please..don't do this.. blablablablabla..
And the same cycle repeats. He was so deluded with his imaginary boyfriend of mine, then my imaginary husband. He still can't get into his head that the reason I left him were because all those items stated in the penyata saman, where he told me that citer dalam kain cannot be proven and it can all be just a hearsay!! Hearsay kepala hotak bapak ko sex maniac child molester tu!!!
Nanti I suruh lawyer tunjuk sumer collection dildos and vibrator to judge and your chats to buy a new vibrator / dildo for me, then I will smack those dildos on your head! Asshole!
Yesterday court mention the judge sound dia if he didn't agree then he have to hire a lawyer. After the court mention, my lawyer discussed with him in front of me and my dad, where he still blaming me that the out of court terms and conditions were more sided to me instead of him.
Kena sound kat lawyer on certain of his term and condition that restrict me to see the kids and only me can take the kids on weekend not their stepfather (aka my new husband). Delusional again! Teeettt!
I can't claim custodian right at the high Court! Pukimak!! And when I asked him why he restricted only me to take the kids and not others like maybe my brother or sisters. He said he didn't want my husband to pick them up! Serios shit he's crazy! He's deluded with his imagination and really think that it's real.
Kalau nak cite hal dia banyak la because he keep on harassing me 24 hours. Stalking and waiting me to response.
Marrr..jawap la wassup I..Marrr pleaseee...don't torture me like this. I only have you Marrr..
Jawap lerrr Marrr.. please...Marr tolong I Marrr.. I'm sufferring.
Marrr..it's been a month since you left the house.. Marr tolong I!!!
Go wank yourself la!
Marrr..you tau I tak pandai..nanti sakit and bengkak!! You buat tak sakit.
Marr...pleasee...you je yang dapat puaskan I and give best BJ ever..
Marrr..ok la if tak BJ pon...shake je please... u got magic hands
Marrr...I rela jadi slave you Marrrrr...pleaseeeeeeee.. I need you
You pandai-pandai la settle sendiri.. none of my business!!
But you're still my legal wife...
Marrr you tolong I ye.. I tunggu you.. anggap lah bantuan you tu sebagai sedekah (WTF!!!). My last wish..
If not... I call you..you tell me how to do it (WTF!!!)... or you send voice record je.. Can? Then you no need to call again after this.
Marrr I bodoh!!! I can be your slave as long as you come back to me. Kesian la kat I.
Please Marrrrr...jawap ler...!! Jangan la senyap! Jawap ler...jawap lerrr..Marrrr..tolong abang Marr!!!
Well.. I guess that's my daily disturbance from now onwards. It irritates me so much that I got headache more frequent nowdays. Memang la tak layan wassup dia tu. Tapi sakit hati la baca. Repeat same thing over and over again yet still in denial that what he had done to me were wrong. Last Friday, I got a call from my friend who's working in Russia because he called her husband who is in Malaysia to caution him about my other girlfriend, who is also our closed friends, to keep distance with her. He was telling my friend's husband that the reason I left him was because I got influenced by this girlfriend who is also single mother aka janda, for sake of freedom and hidup berpoya-poya macam tu. I was so shocked to know that he went to that extend. Gile saiko ahh mamat ni! He even wassup my guy friends pretending he had wrong number but put his profile pic of him and me.
And my mom and dad started to worry about my safety when they heard news about the killing tragedy of that U.i.t.mlecturer last week. My mom told me, the husband looks so naive and innocent and she was implying to my husband. I told her sumer psychopath mana ada muka ganas pon. Kalu muka ganas sumer dah kerja jadi ahli gusti kat WWF tu mami!
Pastu lagi la dia cuak..pesan banyak kali..jangan masuk rumah dia lagi..ever..be careful..he's cunning etc..
Yes, I'm aware. He is full of trick just to make me come over to that house and find an chance where he can be alone with me again.
There's one day, he waited for me downstairs at my office begging me to have coffee with him..and that was really disturbing siotsss!!. He stalked and waited for me at my parking bay while I was walking towards my car. I heard a car engine following me from behind and my name being called. When looked back I saw him in car with his window screen downed and asking me to get inside his car.
Marrrr..tolong I Marrr pleaseee... I tak tahan!!
Mak cuak sekejap and ran away from him using the service lift yet he managed to catch me at the lobby. He was persuading me like a perverted sick man.
You pegang (kote) I sekejap je please..
Marissa...please don't do this. I only have them. If you take them away from me, I'll die..please!! You promise that you agree to let them stay with me.
I changed my mind! You cannot handle them! You're ruining them! You insult kakak! You said bad things about me to the kids! What kind of person you ni!!! I'm their mother!
You can't even protect them. I'm going to take them!!
Marissa please..I'm sorry! Sumpah I tak cakap buruk pon pasal you. I will protect them.
Sudah la I malas nak layan.
Ok..if you want to take the kids..I will fight in court!
Yes, you do that! Then we will see if the judge will think you're fit to be their guardian.
Marissa.. please. Ok ..I promise you I will take care of them. I tanak gaduh and ungkit kisah lama..please!!
So I will keep on doing that every time he tried to control me and insult me again. My final words..you tell your stories and you can bring all your fucking evidence to court and let the judge decide who's telling the lies. Then let judge decide whether he is fit to become a father. Silap2 hakim tu suruh you jumpa psychiatrist and the case got referred to police under civil law. Bring it on!!
Then he will call again..begging..Marissa please..don't do this.. blablablablabla..
And the same cycle repeats. He was so deluded with his imaginary boyfriend of mine, then my imaginary husband. He still can't get into his head that the reason I left him were because all those items stated in the penyata saman, where he told me that citer dalam kain cannot be proven and it can all be just a hearsay!! Hearsay kepala hotak bapak ko sex maniac child molester tu!!!
Nanti I suruh lawyer tunjuk sumer collection dildos and vibrator to judge and your chats to buy a new vibrator / dildo for me, then I will smack those dildos on your head! Asshole!
Yesterday court mention the judge sound dia if he didn't agree then he have to hire a lawyer. After the court mention, my lawyer discussed with him in front of me and my dad, where he still blaming me that the out of court terms and conditions were more sided to me instead of him.
Kena sound kat lawyer on certain of his term and condition that restrict me to see the kids and only me can take the kids on weekend not their stepfather (aka my new husband). Delusional again! Teeettt!
I can't claim custodian right at the high Court! Pukimak!! And when I asked him why he restricted only me to take the kids and not others like maybe my brother or sisters. He said he didn't want my husband to pick them up! Serios shit he's crazy! He's deluded with his imagination and really think that it's real.
Kalau nak cite hal dia banyak la because he keep on harassing me 24 hours. Stalking and waiting me to response.
Marrr..jawap la wassup I..Marrr pleaseee...don't torture me like this. I only have you Marrr..
Jawap lerrr Marrr.. please...Marr tolong I Marrr.. I'm sufferring.
Marrr..it's been a month since you left the house.. Marr tolong I!!!
Go wank yourself la!
Marrr..you tau I tak pandai..nanti sakit and bengkak!! You buat tak sakit.
Marr...pleasee...you je yang dapat puaskan I and give best BJ ever..
Marrr..ok la if tak BJ pon...shake je please... u got magic hands
Marrr...I rela jadi slave you Marrrrr...pleaseeeeeeee.. I need you
You pandai-pandai la settle sendiri.. none of my business!!
But you're still my legal wife...
Marrr you tolong I ye.. I tunggu you.. anggap lah bantuan you tu sebagai sedekah (WTF!!!). My last wish..
If not... I call you..you tell me how to do it (WTF!!!)... or you send voice record je.. Can? Then you no need to call again after this.
Marrr I bodoh!!! I can be your slave as long as you come back to me. Kesian la kat I.
Please Marrrrr...jawap ler...!! Jangan la senyap! Jawap ler...jawap lerrr..Marrrr..tolong abang Marr!!!
Well.. I guess that's my daily disturbance from now onwards. It irritates me so much that I got headache more frequent nowdays. Memang la tak layan wassup dia tu. Tapi sakit hati la baca. Repeat same thing over and over again yet still in denial that what he had done to me were wrong. Last Friday, I got a call from my friend who's working in Russia because he called her husband who is in Malaysia to caution him about my other girlfriend, who is also our closed friends, to keep distance with her. He was telling my friend's husband that the reason I left him was because I got influenced by this girlfriend who is also single mother aka janda, for sake of freedom and hidup berpoya-poya macam tu. I was so shocked to know that he went to that extend. Gile saiko ahh mamat ni! He even wassup my guy friends pretending he had wrong number but put his profile pic of him and me.
And my mom and dad started to worry about my safety when they heard news about the killing tragedy of that U.i.t.mlecturer last week. My mom told me, the husband looks so naive and innocent and she was implying to my husband. I told her sumer psychopath mana ada muka ganas pon. Kalu muka ganas sumer dah kerja jadi ahli gusti kat WWF tu mami!
Pastu lagi la dia cuak..pesan banyak kali..jangan masuk rumah dia lagi..ever..be careful..he's cunning etc..
Yes, I'm aware. He is full of trick just to make me come over to that house and find an chance where he can be alone with me again.
There's one day, he waited for me downstairs at my office begging me to have coffee with him..and that was really disturbing siotsss!!. He stalked and waited for me at my parking bay while I was walking towards my car. I heard a car engine following me from behind and my name being called. When looked back I saw him in car with his window screen downed and asking me to get inside his car.
Marrrr..tolong I Marrr pleaseee... I tak tahan!!
Mak cuak sekejap and ran away from him using the service lift yet he managed to catch me at the lobby. He was persuading me like a perverted sick man.
You pegang (kote) I sekejap je please..
Eh you pandai-pandai la..kote you kan.. I mana ada kote nak buat pancut!!
Please Marrr.. I was angry and left him and went upstairs.
I text him telling that if he disturb and stalk me again, I'm gonna make a police report and will asked the police to open up the case and charge his father for molestation of my daughters so that the police will come and pick his father and put him in jail. I don't care!!! And that he as his son will also be questioned by police for that incident. And I kept on provoking him telling him that he was probably abused by his father during his younger years.
Tell me what your father did to you?? You are like this because your dad are like that! I've seen how your dad insulted your mom by calling her names in public! Tell me! Kenapa senyap?? You want me to call your father and asked him why he molested his own granddaughters ? Or you want the police to question him? Biar satu kampung tahu how filthy your dad is! Dia sembahyang 24hours pon tak guna sebab nak cover up perangai setan tu. Allah can forgive him but I won't forgive him sampai mati pon! U too!!!
The he answered " Me too"
What do you mean by you too? You won't forgive me too? Is that it?
Meaning I made mistakes to you? Is that so?
So what you've said were lies? Because how can you insaf dan berubah if you think what you've done to me were not mistakes?
Ok dah la Marrr..enough ok.. Jangan la hina and kutuk I
I kutuk you ?? Sapa yang dok buruk2 mak dia kat anak-anak ?? Sapa ?? Now the kids are all seem reluctant to spend days with me. (I cried when I put down the phone thinking that my kids not really looking forward to see their mom once a month).. Mak sedih sangat. but I told my daughter it's fine and they all know that I won't force them. I don't want to put them in difficult situation which will not be fair for them. Going through phase experiencing separation of their parents is not easy for them too. I just want them to be happy with their choices.But I know their dad is playing victim game and manipulating them, so I played my game too, but not obvious.
I tak pernah kutuk you kat anak-anak.. I citer yang baik-baik je pasal you kat anak-anak. Righttt!! Penipu besar la lu bro.
Next week I'm gonna call that police officer to follow up on my report regards to his dad's molestation. I want them to pick his dad to the police station with him as his custodian to question and warn him about it. I'm very concern because my kids especially my 2 girls are not with me and I'm not with them all the time to protect them. I'm worried because he don't have me to satisfy his sex needs and I'm afraid if he fall on the kids as substitute. If his dad can do that to his granddaughters, he as a father can do that too to his own daughter. He could be blaming me for not sufficing it, or even claimed that he's out of his sick mind. It's better to think too much than being ignorance. And if he did that I will not have bit of hesitation to see him rot in prison and he can have all the dicks he wishes to see all his fucking life. I don't give a damn shit!!
As I'm living outside of that old life, I began to see things much more clearer and can think rationally. I'm now full of an accumulated anger and hatred, which is all I need to face this fight. So jangan carik pasal ngan wa please..memang mak lazerr tanpa belas ehsan nyee..
Tapi mak jugak learn about love at same time, which is something sweet to balance things up. Having said that, I'm still traumatize of starting another commitment, not until I got all this settled. I don't know. I'm just too afraid to get hurt again, I guess.
Anywaysss...I'm moving to my own crib in Feb. Sedih jugak la tengok bilik sekangkang kera tu. But at least I have a place I can call home or perhaps as a testament for my new freedom and happier life, and so I hope. Tak sabar jugak la. At least something to look forward to. I can arrange the place all I want..tak de dah orang nak kutuk-kutuk cakap my taste out dated or kampong ke hapa. Muahahaha..
Till next update then.
Please Marrr.. I was angry and left him and went upstairs.
I text him telling that if he disturb and stalk me again, I'm gonna make a police report and will asked the police to open up the case and charge his father for molestation of my daughters so that the police will come and pick his father and put him in jail. I don't care!!! And that he as his son will also be questioned by police for that incident. And I kept on provoking him telling him that he was probably abused by his father during his younger years.
Tell me what your father did to you?? You are like this because your dad are like that! I've seen how your dad insulted your mom by calling her names in public! Tell me! Kenapa senyap?? You want me to call your father and asked him why he molested his own granddaughters ? Or you want the police to question him? Biar satu kampung tahu how filthy your dad is! Dia sembahyang 24hours pon tak guna sebab nak cover up perangai setan tu. Allah can forgive him but I won't forgive him sampai mati pon! U too!!!
The he answered " Me too"
What do you mean by you too? You won't forgive me too? Is that it?
Meaning I made mistakes to you? Is that so?
So what you've said were lies? Because how can you insaf dan berubah if you think what you've done to me were not mistakes?
Ok dah la Marrr..enough ok.. Jangan la hina and kutuk I
I kutuk you ?? Sapa yang dok buruk2 mak dia kat anak-anak ?? Sapa ?? Now the kids are all seem reluctant to spend days with me. (I cried when I put down the phone thinking that my kids not really looking forward to see their mom once a month).. Mak sedih sangat. but I told my daughter it's fine and they all know that I won't force them. I don't want to put them in difficult situation which will not be fair for them. Going through phase experiencing separation of their parents is not easy for them too. I just want them to be happy with their choices.But I know their dad is playing victim game and manipulating them, so I played my game too, but not obvious.
I tak pernah kutuk you kat anak-anak.. I citer yang baik-baik je pasal you kat anak-anak. Righttt!! Penipu besar la lu bro.
Next week I'm gonna call that police officer to follow up on my report regards to his dad's molestation. I want them to pick his dad to the police station with him as his custodian to question and warn him about it. I'm very concern because my kids especially my 2 girls are not with me and I'm not with them all the time to protect them. I'm worried because he don't have me to satisfy his sex needs and I'm afraid if he fall on the kids as substitute. If his dad can do that to his granddaughters, he as a father can do that too to his own daughter. He could be blaming me for not sufficing it, or even claimed that he's out of his sick mind. It's better to think too much than being ignorance. And if he did that I will not have bit of hesitation to see him rot in prison and he can have all the dicks he wishes to see all his fucking life. I don't give a damn shit!!
As I'm living outside of that old life, I began to see things much more clearer and can think rationally. I'm now full of an accumulated anger and hatred, which is all I need to face this fight. So jangan carik pasal ngan wa please..memang mak lazerr tanpa belas ehsan nyee..
Tapi mak jugak learn about love at same time, which is something sweet to balance things up. Having said that, I'm still traumatize of starting another commitment, not until I got all this settled. I don't know. I'm just too afraid to get hurt again, I guess.
Anywaysss...I'm moving to my own crib in Feb. Sedih jugak la tengok bilik sekangkang kera tu. But at least I have a place I can call home or perhaps as a testament for my new freedom and happier life, and so I hope. Tak sabar jugak la. At least something to look forward to. I can arrange the place all I want..tak de dah orang nak kutuk-kutuk cakap my taste out dated or kampong ke hapa. Muahahaha..
Till next update then.
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